so it’s occurred to me that there must be some sort of karma, though i’m not sure i’d refer to it as such. a man reaps what he sews - that’s more like it. i remark about this because i’ve just reaped a large portion of my own harvest. i won’t go into details, but it’s mainly heartache, tears, wails and all that usual drama. and this conclusion has lead to me another: nothing is meaningless. most of you reading this (i say that strictly to continue this vibe of “eloquent narrator” because, truthfully, i don’t really think anyone is reading this) are sitting there thinking, “thanks captain obvious; life lesson already learned,” and that very well may be the case. but it’s my blog and so i’ll talk about it. lately i’ve been hammered with these two ideas over and over again and i realize i can’t escape them at any turn and i had to just sit down and think about them. i’ve going through a whole lot of crap because, quite frankly, i gave someone else a whole lot of crap nearly 10 months ago. and while i hate feeling this way and i would never wish this on anyone, i’m glad i’m going through it because i know there is a purpose. i know that all things have purpose because we have a Creator with purpose and a plan larger than us. He allows things to come in and out of our little lives and mess with us (for better or worse) to meet His purpose and further His Kingdom. all things that are done, are done with this in mind, though we don’t see it. and if something devastating happens to you, it’s not just because God hates you (He can’t hate really, but He certainly does have a Wrath), but because He has something that must be learned/moved/enacted/begun/ended/or what have you. maybe the lesson that is being learned isn’t by you, maybe your life teaches a lesson to another. the main point in this whole shpeel is that we cannot focus on ourselves and some “right” we think we have to be happy; instead we must focus on the overall goal and be okay with the fact that we may not get it right now. it happens. our brains are small (and face it guys, if we don’t get women, and women, if you don’t get men, how are ANY of us supposed to understand God?). we know what we know for a reason and don’t know what we don’t know for a reason. kah-peesh? so, all this being said, i will go back to being emo for the time being, knowing full well that man was never made to be alright all of the time and that joy is foundational and happiness is merely situational (that’s a whole other theory you can ask me about if you’re dreadfully bored, all of you non-existent readers). so lighten up. God’s plan is in place and working itself in and out of our short little lives. enjoy what time you have and check your emotions at the door.