So. Fasting sucks. But that’s the point, right?
I’ve learned a lot these past few days. When I say “a lot” I’m not referring to groundbreaking new ways of thinking, just very simple things that have a wide impact. For example: consistency. A baseball player can’t expect to be awesome during games if all he does is play the games. It’s a lifestyle; adequate sleep, healthy diet, serious exercise. It’s all the things behind the scenes, all the preparation, that make you a good baseball player. The same goes with all points of life. You have to maintain consistency in all things to really succeed when the lights are up and cameras are on.
Also. I know little to nothing about photography, but I just bought a camera so you may see me around with it. I’ve got a good eye, but I’m trying to put all the pieces together and make great pictures. If you know Brian Schultz, look at his profile picture. It’s his amp. I took it. I think it looks cool. But hey, I’m a n00b. That’s why @corymorton is going to teach me crazy things.
Yes, I did “@” someone during a blog. Look him up. Killer photog.
Been in a little bit of a dry spell when it comes to writing music recently, but I think I’m on the tail end of it. I can write again, but I hate all the songs I pen so soon enough they’ll get better and I’ll like them. Writing is my outlet so I hope it happens soon.
Lastly. Fasting sucks. But that’s the point. Take some time to deny yourself and look after someone else’s interests for a minute. It’s tough, but it’s the right thing to do.
I’ve been told over and over that things in our lives happen in seasons. Not seasons like fall, winter, etc., or like football / baseball season, but more a period of time that contains an occupation, feeling, struggle, or whatever. It’s hard to distinguish one from another because you’re always in one and so we just revert to comparing previous seasons to one another and wondering when / how this one will end. I like this analogy. I prefer to think of it as connect the dots, but ya know, it’s all up to personal preference. While I like these little analogies, I can’t help thinking that this is a dangerous way to frame your life.
Now, notice I’m not destroying the whole idea, we just need to be careful how heavily we lean on it. If you’re always concerned about the previous seasons and waiting for the seasons to come, you could very easily miss the one you’re in. Plans are great and we need to look ahead, but it is more important to focus on what is right in front of you. If you are faithful with what you have now, you will continue to be faithful with everything else. We must realize that while the unknown can be quite scary, it’s not unknown to God. I could easily go ahead and reference Jeremiah 29.11 and talk about the plans God has for you, but too often we take that to mean a plan down the line; something bigger, greater than what we’re a part of now. Well did we ever stop to think that we are currently in his plan? That we are enacting big parts of it now? What if God doesn’t need to wait until we’re 30, 40, 50, etc. to do something with us? Hasn’t life already begun?
It’s a hard balance to create, but we need to simultaneously be patiently and excitedly be looking forward to what God has for us while we are devoting all we are to living in what he created us for right now. Heaven forbid we continue to look forward and miss the “big plan” because we’re not looking at what’s happening around us. I’m no expert, I’m not doing this right, but we’ve all got to work on it together and be aware of our surroundings. Each breath we take is a part of his plan—let’s use them.
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So. Typically I try to get on here and say something inspirational or deep or something like that, but I think I’m going to use this blog for what real people use it for: just talking.
So. I’m tired. I’m really tired. I’ve been tired for…3 years. Ha. Kind of kidding, kind of not. I’ve been doing a lot of deep thinking recently and I won’t bore you with the subtle nuances, but in a nutshell I’ve been wondering what makes people get up from day to day. Now before I continue, realize this: I’m not trying to say anything super inspirational or deep or anything like that, just something I’ve been thinking and you can make it deep if you want, but this is just something simple that I waste time thinking about. Some people get up for families, sons and daughters, husbands and wives; some people wake up for money or success, the big house and the good life; some people are just simply pumped about being able to wake up and make it onto another day. But what about people who aren’t driven by money, people who don’t have family or significant others, people who are sick of the daily grind?
Don’t get me wrong, I have a family and I love them very much, but they don’t get me out of bed at 8am on a Monday (ha!). I’m not driven by money, though I enjoy being comfortable, and I am quite simply annoyed with the daily grind. So I stopped and thought the other day: what gets me out of bed in the morning? I then extended that thought to everyone else on earth; why do they wake up? What is worth it? Why go through all the trouble to build a life, get an education, get a job, work your life away to buy the house and the car, have a few kids, love a husband/wife if you’re just going to die? Those are all great things, but why are we doing them? Because we’re told to, or because there is a driving force behind it? If you have no driving force then every banal movement of your 80 +/- years on this Earth becomes…well…meaningless.
Okay, I understand this has gotten a little deep, but like I said, these are run of the mill thoughts for me. If that’s too much for you, I’m sorry. I honestly have a pretty light feeling about it all, though, so follow me on the wrap up.
Like I said, without a driving force, a purpose, why get up in the morning? Why go through all of those movements? I can’t speak for the spiritual direction of all those others on earth, but I can say that I investigated my own life and dug as far as I logically could until I hit one thing: Jesus put me on this earth. Typical, right? But it really hit me pretty hard. Jesus/The Father/The Spirit placed me on this earth for a specific time and a specific purpose. It doesn’t matter how big or small the purpose is, it doesn’t matter the kind of impact I’ll have, what matters is that all of those movements that once seemed stale—the hours spent at work, the practicing, love had and lost, success and failure, sunny days and rain, car payments, friendships, family time, solitude and everything in between—instantly take on a meaning that I probably wont ever comprehend. Those movements now fit into a Kingdom plan, a new movement in a never ending sonata orchestrated by the One who knows all and has seen all and I have the honor of playing a part, no matter how small.
That’s why I can get up at 8am. Have a good Monday everyone.
i just recently read through a number of my old posts and couldn’t help but laugh. well, at least for most. it’s so strange to revisit your old self and jump into that mindset and that personality again. i’ve changed so much in so little time. it really is odd, but i enjoyed it. i laughed, i cried, i deleted ;) and now i’m moving on.
for a moment i thought it all strange. but then i realized: strange is okay, perfectly normal is what’s really scary.
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So im about to graduate from college. I think my last post was about how stressed i was about a job and work i hadnt done. Oddly enough i have the job, but the work seems to never stop. I keep thinking to myself that things will be better when i can leave work at work. But i think thats just a false premonition. Each new point in life comes with its own new challenges and none is easier than the one before. I guess we’re just supposed to be prepared; to be competent enough to handle those new challenges. At 21 i’d say i was competent at many things, but i can’t possibly try to say i can handle those things that lay ahead. The simple reason is that i don’t know what is ahead! How can i sit here and say i can handle it when i don’t know what the “it” is? I guess i’ll just stick to what i have right here in front of me and take this last finals week one day at a time. God has blessed me in so many ways and i’m so thankful to be where i am. Now it’s my turn to finish up and move on to the next part he’s put before me and still try to get some sleep. here’s hoping i break even. sent from my phone Joey Bucci 856.524.0878 joseph.b.bucci@gmail.com
So I’ve been sitting here at Starbucks (I know, I’m not supporting local business, but there is live music at the local coffee shop and I can’t concentrate) for close to 3 hours and as much as I’m focusing on my work, I can’t help but let my mind wander. Did I get that job? What car am I going to buy? Can I even afford a car right now? How much longer can I pretend I’m not a student? I know I shouldn’t be worrying, but I just can’t help myself.
This is an eerily pivotal point in my life and it’s all starting to get to me. There are few things I need: to finish college, a job, a car, health insurance. Those bring home rent, food, etc. There are also a couple of things I want pretty badly: the flexibility to continue making music, to no longer have homework and the stress of college, a large car (or SUV). But what if all of my wants and needs are somehow backward? Everyone I know tells me something different and my heart and my head are at odds. For this being such an important point in my life, it seems awfully ambiguous. I’m fully aware of what’s going on around me. Whether or not I choose to let them effect is my own undoing. I know that college is just a way to get a degree that I can use to ransom a salary from some large company, and I’m all about sticking it to the man, but there’s no way to win in this situation. To drop out would be retarded. Absolutely retarded. I’m 3 months from 2 diplomas—free ones at that. But I hate that I need them and need to impress some employer just so I can go on living. It seems there is no room for idealism in the world today and so I’m over trying to convince people otherwise. I’m just rambling.
I just wish things weren’t so uncertain. If my life is supposed to be as “cookie cutter” as I’m told it is, why do I have no idea what the heck is going on? It’s supposed to be as simple as college-job-house-family-kids, rinse and repeat. But alas, it is not so. Don’t think I’m looking to make things overly dramatic—that’s not the plan. I’m just trying to figure out how all of this is done. Here I sit, looking at fake bricks and commentaries, unraveling the nuances of the Christian faith and the deepest realms of the human soul, and ultimately wondering, “if I buy gas, will I have enough money for dinner?” And so I’ll wait upon God, hoping, when I should be knowing, that He is going to take care of me. The last time I made life plans, I moved 350 miles to a town I’d never heard of. I really hope that doesn’t happen again.
I know I haven’t updated in a while, but I’m in a particularly boxed-in mood combined with an excess of geek. So i figured I would get back on the horse and let you know what’s up.
I recently interviewed for a position at the Educational Management Corporation. They own the Art Institutes, Argosy University, South University and Brown Mackie College. The position I applied for was Assistant Director of Admissions for their online programs.
Let me clear up some confusion:
1) There are like 30 ADA positions. It sounds fly, but it’s not much different from what I currently do at Geneva.
2) I have said before that the position was with the Art Institute of Pittsburgh. That’s only mostly right. I could work for any of the schools owned by the EDMC (except Brown Mackie, since they don’t have an online program). It’s possible I won’t be working for AIP, but I’ll be in the same building doing the same work.
3) I’m still in the running, despite the recent drama-filled Tweets I’ve been flooding you all with.
I should be hearing back from the EDMC this next week and hopefully I’ll be getting the job. I’ve been planning on moving into the SouthSide with Bryan Humphreys (AKA b-hump, humpy, hump-tastic or a number of other things) and this would make everything work out quite well. If it falls through, I’m sure I can find something else. But I’d like this job and I’m sure it’ll treat me well. So. It’d be cool if I get it. I’ll let you all know at a later date.